I haven’t been writing much lately (other than homework papers on the biology of trauma, or case studies in de-potentiation of encoded trauma, etc.) but after an experience this morning that involved my flute, I realized how much we, as a freedom community, have and continue to THRIVE and why…. I hope you enjoy the Blues Project and Beatles tunes I’ve picked to accompany my observations and story of gratitude about the last few years. Much love xx M
FLUTE THANG
Photo Caption: The BLUES PROJECT ^^ For those who don’t know the Blues Project, they were a great 60s band whose members went on to play in many bands you may know. I first saw them play at my high school auditorium (true) in about 1967. Two of the members Danny Kalb, and Roy Blumenfeld lived in my home town. We went to the same summer camp, and “Y’. Roy Blumenfeld lives in Sonoma County and plays with some local gigs in Marin now and then. The last time I saw him, I brought my old album and finally got his autograph.
Me & My Flute
A few years ago, I was enjoying my chamber ensemble at a local music school in Marin, home of possibly the most injected residents according to our county health officer, a pal of Fauci and a good little WEF puppet. When they said that we had to show proof of the vexing injection in order to continue playing at their music school, I wrote saying that was illegal. At that time I believed it was, but of course that was before men could have babies and chest feed them too. Shortly after I sent my letter, they closed the school due to convid.
A few weeks ago, I got an announcement of their re-opening, and despite the smell of disinfectant, the dirty carpets, the teeny tiny practice rooms without windows or air flow of any kind - I felt it was worth it for 2 hours/week to get to play with some skilled musicians under the direction of a wonderful coach, and so close to home and $25 for a 2 hour session.
I signed up and was put in a group of another flutist and an oboist. The music they sent me looked daunting, and I haven’t played my ‘real’ flute in over 3 years - meaning no scales, no long tones, no syncopated rhythms, no sight-reading. I have my ebay flute for jam session perhaps for 45 minutes/month for the last 3 years. I showed up very rusty today. As a matter of fact, I was almost late for our rehearsal because I couldn’t find my real flute.
I arrived on time to see that the building had been freshly painted on the outside, and I hoped that they made some interior changes - like remove the disgusto carpets, aired it out the last 3 years, but alas…the smell of disinfectant smacked me in the face when I opened the front door. Yuck…OMG, I get to breathe this shit in for 2 hours?? Next time I’ll bring my air purifier. No kidding.
However the grace of sanity had my back. Back in the corner, where I never dared to go before, there was one practice room with a big double functioning sliding glass door. The director assigned that room to us, saying — feel free to open the door and this room is yours for the rest of the 6 week series. OMGoddess, thank you. Thank you.
The thought of playing music in a tiny room without clean are with people who have been jabbed multiple times did not excite me, but today, I took the risk and got supported by the universe! I’m so grateful. I took the chair near the door and opened it widely letting cool refreshing Marin air into the room. The other 2 players enjoyed the air as well. How could they not, right? They are human. Air is essential.
During the few minutes of settling in and getting to know one another, the others talked about how lonely it was the last few years. How they practiced alone in their homes and therefore really honed their skills. The oboist told us of a time a few clarinetists rented a big church in SF, opened all the windows and sat at least 6 feet apart in order to play music together. I replied that I met most weekends with friends and had parties and jam sessions, to which they both almost shouted: “in person?”!
Yes, I said in person. I also said that I didn’t get the jab, and we keep socializing throughout the last 3 years in person. One person said he feels like a pin-cushion because he’s had so many vaccines, adding that he’s a retired Kaiser neurologist. The other player said she’s given tons of boosters to people because she was a Costco pharmacist whose husband is a Kaiser doc. Yikes. For the last 3 years she said shehad to practice all alone.
Oh my goodness… these people were lonely. They missed that vagal ventral connection of socialization by following the mandate to stay socially disconnected.
Now that we’re ‘allowed’ to be together once more, I feel so grateful that my story of the last 3 years differs vastly from theirs.
I wondered if they would kick me out of the ensemble and label me an unvaxxed menace. I wondered if, had this happened 2 years ago, they would have reported me to the authorities. I wonder when they are going to get their next boosters or whatever is offered as the antidote to the next current fear-mongering thang.
But more than anything, I wonder if we can just revel in the awesomeness of this beautiful music we are learning together, and which we will perform together in June.
I’m proud of myself for venturing out into the world of the ‘others’. I probably didn’t need to tell them anything about my injection status, but on the other hand, I want people to know that WE LIVED.
WE LIVED WELL.
WE REJOICED.
WE FOUND COMMUNITY.
We massaged that ventral vagal muscle and not only did we stay together,
WE THRIVED TOGETHER.
With pot lucks, and jam sessions, and concerts, and rallies, and study groups, and hugs, and kisses, and some of us got sick, and one of us died in the hospital on a ventilator and with remdesivir (she had a lot of pre-existing conditions and lacked self care and her family made the hospital decisions against her wishes). May her memory be a blessing.
The rest of us are still here. . . living this beautiful life. We made it. And although I am grateful that most of my connections are with un-needled friends and animals, I can connect with those whose may be vibrating on different timelines that we, and even make beautiful music together.
WHAT I’VE BEEN UP TO
In other news, I have completed my course training in Havening Touch Techniques aka Delta Wave Techniques, and have completed 1/2 of my 30 case studies. I still have some openings for FREE case studies available. If interested, please email marinfreedom@protonmail.com to schedule your free 45-60 minutes zoom session.
I am also a trained mentor in Dr. Aimie’s Trauma Healing Accelerated (THA) programs and was just the Lead Mentor for the evening sessions of the 21 Day Journey. I am a certified Mentor Trainer, and have 5 certifications in her Biology of Trauma series - with 1 left to complete the series. Dr. Aimie’s work, THA, combines somatic, IFS-type parts work, with biology to assist people process trauma in a safe and gentle way.
And I am concurrently taking my certification training to be a coach in Somagetics - formerly known as Transpersonal Energy Healing.
My immersion in these somatic and parts practices is why I’ve not been so active in Substack, and why until now, I have not been out and about so much. Getting out to meet in person with other musicians uplifted me.
And we will continue our jam sessions and celebrations with birthdays and bon voyages happening soon. And in the meantime, what are you doing that you love to do? Obladi, Oblada, Life Goes On Bra….. (I’m sure you can find all you want about the Solar Eclipse and all the other horrible things going on. Reinette’s last stack was quite an eye opener. So many possibilities, theories, preparations suggested, creepy things, scary creepy things, but in the meantime…. I’m going to dance to this silly song and then practice Divertimento for Flute, Oboe, and Clarinet, by Malcolm Arnold! I’ll let you know when we schedule our concert.
(Ha-ha-ha-ha) And if you want some fun (Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha)
Take Ob-la-di-bla-da
Ahh, thank you
Beautiful🌸Beautiful🧘🏼♂️ and so Heartfelt 💞and Alive ! Honored to be part if the outliers and truth telling crew…🍍👙🕶️You can’t silence FUN !
very awesome and exciting work you are loving and living,Marin!